[fic] I'll Always Want You Near
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G, 700 words
Labyrinth- Jareth/Sarah
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100_women's #72- winter. Title taken from Tori Amos's Winter.
In the winter, she thinks of him. She's not sure why then- your eyes can be so cruel- but when things are colder, she lets herself think back of the labyrinth, of Hoggle, Ludo, and Sir Didymus. Of the Goblin King.
She never thinks of his name, let alone say it. He has no power over her- and yet, every winter, there he is, in the back of her mind.
Once, when Toby was five, and the leaves where falling off the trees and she needed her gloves, she nearly wished herself away to the labyrinth. She didn’t even now if it worked that way, but the words nearly came out of her mouth- she had to bit her tongue to keep silent.
She might miss Hoggle and the others- but only a little bit.
She also might be in love with him now- but only a little bit.
She never did explain why she was miserable that entire winter- but then, no one but Toby thought enough to ask.
The thing is, she doesn't even really think about the labyrinth. She has her own life- friends, a good job, and serious relationships. She doesn't concern herself with it- it had never really happened. Life went on, and she never saw Hoggle and the others- him- again, and she knew that it had just been a dream. Life went on, and she had traded her dreams for reality. She had been fifteen, a little too old to be dreaming like that, but she had done it all the same. She can look at crystals and not remember what he offered her.
She can still eat peaches too, and always fights the urge to fall asleep.
Winter comes and goes, until she gets to the point where she feels the cold deep into her bones, and she's surrounded by children, grandchildren and one great-grandchild.
And yet.
"I ask for so little. Just fear me, love me, do as I say and I will be your slave."
All things die in the winter, including her and her dreams. She thinks and wants and loves him still, even though she's never wanted to.
"Sarah?"
She opens her eyes, and Toby is standing over her. The room is empty now, expect for the two of them. She wishes that he would leave, so that she could die, and not have any of them see her go.
"Yes?" she answers instead.
His smile is both sad and a little guilty. "I made a deal."
"What?"
"I wish your Goblin King would take you away, right now," he whispers, and kisses her forehead goodbye.
She wants to stare at him in horror, but instead, she only closes her eyes.
When she opens them again-
Well.
"I move the stars for no one, you know," he says. The words sound like a distant memory.
"Am I dead?" she asks, and blinks when she realizes that she sounds younger. Not quite fifteen, but not on her deathbed.
"I'm afraid not," he answers, and she could see the amusement in his eyes, "I believe Toby told you that he made a deal?"
She nods, but he doesn't acknowledge it, not that she can tell.
"I ask for so little," he begins.
"Just fear me, love me, do as I say and I will be your slave," she finishes. They're not words that she's likely to ever forget.
There are things she regrets, things that she wishes that she had done right the first time around.
"Does the offer still stand?" she questions. He could turn her into a goblin and be done with her, and while she loves him- well, not that much.
He just looks at her. "Say my name."
"Jareth," she whispers, even as he cups her cheek with his hand.
"It has never expired," he tells her just as softly, "You really are a cruel one, Sarah, for making me wait so long."
"I'm sorry," she replies, and she means it.
She hopes that winter never comes to the Goblin City- she has no intention of missing him again. Which is fine- when he kisses her, she realizes he's not letting her go.
G, 700 words
Labyrinth- Jareth/Sarah
I'm actually sort of nervous about posting this one. For
100_women's #72- winter. Title taken from Tori Amos's Winter.In the winter, she thinks of him. She's not sure why then- your eyes can be so cruel- but when things are colder, she lets herself think back of the labyrinth, of Hoggle, Ludo, and Sir Didymus. Of the Goblin King.
She never thinks of his name, let alone say it. He has no power over her- and yet, every winter, there he is, in the back of her mind.
*
Once, when Toby was five, and the leaves where falling off the trees and she needed her gloves, she nearly wished herself away to the labyrinth. She didn’t even now if it worked that way, but the words nearly came out of her mouth- she had to bit her tongue to keep silent.
She might miss Hoggle and the others- but only a little bit.
She also might be in love with him now- but only a little bit.
She never did explain why she was miserable that entire winter- but then, no one but Toby thought enough to ask.
*
The thing is, she doesn't even really think about the labyrinth. She has her own life- friends, a good job, and serious relationships. She doesn't concern herself with it- it had never really happened. Life went on, and she never saw Hoggle and the others- him- again, and she knew that it had just been a dream. Life went on, and she had traded her dreams for reality. She had been fifteen, a little too old to be dreaming like that, but she had done it all the same. She can look at crystals and not remember what he offered her.
She can still eat peaches too, and always fights the urge to fall asleep.
*
Winter comes and goes, until she gets to the point where she feels the cold deep into her bones, and she's surrounded by children, grandchildren and one great-grandchild.
And yet.
"I ask for so little. Just fear me, love me, do as I say and I will be your slave."
All things die in the winter, including her and her dreams. She thinks and wants and loves him still, even though she's never wanted to.
"Sarah?"
She opens her eyes, and Toby is standing over her. The room is empty now, expect for the two of them. She wishes that he would leave, so that she could die, and not have any of them see her go.
"Yes?" she answers instead.
His smile is both sad and a little guilty. "I made a deal."
"What?"
"I wish your Goblin King would take you away, right now," he whispers, and kisses her forehead goodbye.
She wants to stare at him in horror, but instead, she only closes her eyes.
*
When she opens them again-
Well.
"I move the stars for no one, you know," he says. The words sound like a distant memory.
"Am I dead?" she asks, and blinks when she realizes that she sounds younger. Not quite fifteen, but not on her deathbed.
"I'm afraid not," he answers, and she could see the amusement in his eyes, "I believe Toby told you that he made a deal?"
She nods, but he doesn't acknowledge it, not that she can tell.
"I ask for so little," he begins.
"Just fear me, love me, do as I say and I will be your slave," she finishes. They're not words that she's likely to ever forget.
There are things she regrets, things that she wishes that she had done right the first time around.
"Does the offer still stand?" she questions. He could turn her into a goblin and be done with her, and while she loves him- well, not that much.
He just looks at her. "Say my name."
"Jareth," she whispers, even as he cups her cheek with his hand.
"It has never expired," he tells her just as softly, "You really are a cruel one, Sarah, for making me wait so long."
"I'm sorry," she replies, and she means it.
She hopes that winter never comes to the Goblin City- she has no intention of missing him again. Which is fine- when he kisses her, she realizes he's not letting her go.
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Aww Factor
Date: 2007-03-06 11:39 pm (UTC)Because.
Not only do you really get her. Sarah who had to give it up her fantasy for reality even though she never wanted to leave, i.e. the big party afterwards. She could always call on them whenever she needed them, and they told her that. But you approach it from a different side. The side that she really needed her step mother to give her. She needed reality to finally let her have her fantasy and Toby does that there and i just love it.
Not only that, and i'm sure you are hating me right now for writing so much, but yeah. IRL Jennifer had no idea how awesome of a privilege it was to be working with Bowie until she got into the Glam Rock a few years later. She stated in an interview that she wished she could have gone back to work on the film after that because she was a big fan of his. So not only did the characters work, but the real life personality of the actors got brought into play also. Be you meant to do that or not. So. There you go. <3
so, when i say things like "AWWWW" and "I love it" on the phone to you and you think i'm saying it just cause you are the best friend and therefore i love anything you write. And I do. But not without reason and there are my reasonings for really loving this oneshot. And I'm only saying all of this (because i know if i did this all the time it would get to your head) is because you were really nervous about posting it. And you shouldn't be. Because it's awesome.
Did I mention the AWWW factor? Because, Awww!
Re: Aww Factor
Date: 2007-03-07 08:48 pm (UTC)